begining my entry...no idea wat to write n how to write..hmpf
feeling so sian nowadays..i had nothing to do..dun call me to study..it juz sux!! whole dae at home..alone..now i can understand the feeling of being the only child..cant blame them if they learnt bad things..well..i m not saying i will learn bad things huh...mayb i m already a bad kid..mayb..
sometime i really wish i could juz go n slp for the rest of my life..den i wld not be bothered by all e troubles tt i have..my "outstanding" results..my relationships wif others..n me..wouldnt tt be good..
i feel tt my relation wif my frenS have weaken somehow..do not tok tt often..n when i try to get in..i juz feel so......strange..dunnoe how to describe it..like i am an outcast..wat shld i do..? n i feel tt someone in my class..not goin to mention who as i have not yet confirm it..do not like me..like as in fren like..he gave me the feeling..i do not wish tt to happen..really..i wish when i m out of this sch everybody will have a god impression of me i mean my fren..i dun care how my teachers tink of me anyway i already noe wat they tink of me...wat i wan is a good one or at least neutral..neutral will be good enough..sometimes watching those funny students in my class making jokes of each other..i only can stand aside(or sit) n watch them laugh at their action..i m so useless..!!
can i really achieve anything in my life..?? |
